Monday, September 15, 2008
manda oxide
thank you for..FOREVER givin way to me,
and recently "protectin" me lyk a motherly figure, xP
and always enduring my fengness :)
doesnt this pic look lyk FLAKEY and my bluemisty?xP
TODAY is the LAST DAY of my prelims!
though dun really LOVE today or feel happy coz it just means Os is drawin NEARER...
but anws, of coz must celebrate and enjoy awhile 1st before chiongin agn xP
WARNING : LONG AND CRAPPY POST AS YOU SCROLL DOWN
SO went j8 with sannnnnnn and xm..~!
and it was bcoz i wanted my chocolate milkshake xP
aww, me and my desperate cravings..hahaha..
bt anw, we took 410 to j8 coz we were TOO LAZY and probably tired to walk xP
and we met so many ppl lor -.-
1st we met 4joy ppl, den we met sihui tey all and 4peace ppl, den met our class boys..
j8's too small xP
anw we had alot of hesitations here and tere thanks to SANDRA LOCK.. xP
1st she wanted to eat LJS, den MCWINGS, den PIZZA HUT...
in de end, we went mac for mcwings -.-
and i guess xm was so sick of our "FLEXIBILITY TO CHANGES"
until she jux kope two fries and shooed off xP
and my favourite sentences today to xin min were...
"LEARN TO ADAPT TO CHANGES!" "BE MORE FLEXIBLE!" xP
hahahaha.. ohwell..
just made me realise how used san and i are to each other.. HAHAHAHA
coz i had no complaints or comments to san's indecisiveness and i really din mind..^.^"
i guess its really called MODIFICATION to my characteristics... LOL.. (bio)
ANYWAY,
so sannnnnn and i sat tere at mac, yakkin on her PHOBIA OF.... *ZIP* xP
den wen we went toilet i suddenly had a urge to watch WALL-E.. LOL
and sumhow we ended up callin priscilla and borrowin money frm her xP
DEN we stood at de theatres and pondered on wat to watch..
we even called rach to get advice on wat to watch..
coz san din wanna watch WALL-E =(
and we refused to watch money no enough, coz we both think its a waste of $ xP
AND we almost wanted to watch 12 LOTUS =.=''
but in de end, we din watch any =( and i din get my nachos T.T
so we stood outside de mrt station starin at de map of spore xP
and sickenin sandra wanted to go chinese garden.. hahahahaha...
while i wanted to go VIVO xP
and so we squabbled and squabbled tere..
SHE SUGGESTED: kallang ice skating MY REBUTTAL: i got enough wounds and cuts xP
SHE SUGGESTED: chinese garden hahahaha.. I JUST SAID.."LETS GO VIVO!" xP
and so her persistant answer was chinese garden... LOL!!
and mine was tampines mall to watch movie xP
AND WE ENDED UP AT DOUBY.. -.-
and we din watch movie coz SMALL LIL SANDRA wanted to find wallet =(
and i was soooooo lookin forward to my nachos lor HMPH!
haix so disappointedly, i was dragged by san to daiso -.-
WHERE SHE WANTED A DUMB LOOKIN BOX xP
hahaha.. JOKIN.. she wanted this box so badly she hinted to the person beside her..
hmm.. i wonder if de person wld rmb.. hahahahaa..
so in de end i din get to buy a decent, cute lil box =(
i din even get to buy tat cute plastic bag wih cute wordins..
but we went SPOTLIGHT after tat, whr i gt this plain grey box..
i dunnoe why i bought it too xP
guess was too sleepy until din noe wat i was doin.. LOL!
while san bought "MEE FEN" to KNIT A SCARF.. hahahahahaha
the threads thingys looked TOOO like MEE FEN tat i cldnt stop laughin at her.. xP
(she looked lyk my mother choosin MEE FEN) xP
OH BE MY WITNESS, SHE SAID SHE WANNA KNIT SCARF FOR ME.. ^.^
bt i guess i'll see it 5yrs later xP tats her deadline, when we go IRELAND with rach :)
ANNNNNDDDD i cldnt find a nice envelope for somebody's belated card =(
BUT!!! sandy kindly volunteered to make for me an envelope =)
so oh well, all i needa do later is do de card's front cover :D
after tat, we had AUNTIE ANNIE'S! :D
and i koped lyk 1/4 of her cinnamon thin xP I LOVE TAT CINNAMON THINGY, GOSH..
but she din treat me one piece lyk promised!! xP
jkjk.. hahahaha..
and we boarded train to marina bay and back to tp (:
coz i wanted to sit more xP
and it was a SO RIGHT decision..
oz when at marina bay, it was so empty lor..
and both of us were slpin tere xP
san slept so close to me.. okaes nt even called close..
she literally laid on my back coz i was leanin more on de screen thingy.. hahahaha
until she cld feel my heartbeat.. GOSH.. hahahah.
den she took a crazy picture of herself -.-which u can see her if u LOOK CLOSELY to de BLACK THIN THERE.. hahaha xP
and she insisted on takin a pic together bt i deleted it xP
coz i looked lyk a drug addict with my eyes 3/4 closed -.-
was too sleepy le xP
and i was half aslp all de way tat i kept spoutin nonsense.. hahahaha..
and as usual, i asked strange and stupid questions which she only HUH at with no answers XD
but yesterday had nitemare lor =(
oni had 4hrs of sleep coz i slept at 1plus plus plus coz i cldnt sleep =(
and when i fell aslp i had nitemareS -.-
TWO nitemares in 4 hrs -.-
coz i was frightened until i woke up in cold sweat at 5plus am =(
den i was sooo affected by them i tried to think of frens who cld give me comfort xP
bt they all looked lyk dead corpses and monsters everytym i think of them T.T
so i went to sleep with my maid in de end..~
and i cldnt get back to sleep frm 5plus all de way to 7.20am when it was about tym to wake up
and it affected my whole day's behaviour lor..
i cldnt do my chem paper in peace coz it was lyk somethin botherin bottling up in me =(
but thank god when i was doin bio, i was in a relaxed mood :D
den followed by a whole day of feng-ness and half aslpness xP
and durin this weekend, learnt alot more about myself =/
learn tat i really like and dislike things/ppl/anythin very fast..and scary..
coz in one day.. three people told me tat.. =(
and when de third person told me tat.. it impacted me alot xP
and then tere was this conversation with my mum and sis..
and our conclusion was tat im now numb towards everythin ard me,
coz i dun wanna get involved in the world's pain and hurt, and frustrations..
well its a kinda gradual and i myself din realise until tat day they mentioned,
tat ive been escaping reality so much tat i cant sense ppl's moods anymore
im nt tat sensitive to others' feelings, and im nt sensitive to wat ppl say anymore..
i guess its just coz i had too many frustrations and disappointments and blahhh before
(guess i have a weak little fragile heart) xP
so i guess i just wanted to live a life concentrating on studies..
but maybe it isnt tat good, coz it caused me to overlook others' moods...
¬ being able to help cheer ppl up makes my weak heart feel worse..
but it doesnt matter anymore,doesnt it..its all done and over..-.-
ohwell..~
i guess i have this layer of manda oxide around me,
causing me to be oblivious to de people ard me.. sadd isnt it..?
haha.. too much chemistry, manda!! xP
LASTLY!
i love this alot alot alot alot alot alot alot, gosh xP
-x33- (:
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