MANDA'S FAIRYTALE♥

and the thoughts in my head go round and round..

been working!

its everyday 5-9.30pm including saturdays. and i even went to work today, a sunday. :(

but ohwell. all for the KACHING. WHY NOT!

so i have been lunching with bell too :)

we both work in the same office, use the same table, but different shifts!!

when i come for work, she leaves. :(

but nice me went down to accompany her for lunch almost everyday this past week! :D

had carl's junior, macs, HANS and KFC with her so far :)

I LOVE BEEFCHILLICHEESEFRIES!!

AND! i brought her to one of my favourite shop to see see look look, MUJI! :D

bought the marshmellows!! the green tea one was disappointingly awful :(

but i like working on w e e k e n d s ! :)

yesterday went work earlier to slack with bell. we went to buy FROLIC :D

and played my phone games til my shift colleagues came.

chit chat with them til 6plus. and GOSH! had to spam my calls to meet my call target.

and today,

i left work few hours earlier with my slack colleagues. :D

well, mostly coz i spammed call again to reach target and then slacked after that :)

my colleague praised me and said i make successful calls very quickly. yay. im a fast worker :D

wanted post a pic of our desk. but lazy.

anyway. just checked out local uni grade profiles again.

and im losing confidence every single day as 4th march approaches.

MY EVALUATION AND REFLECTIONS......

even though i know, i wont do well,

getting a S for econs or gp will be the most devastating thing to me. :(

S for chem will be saddening, but not devastating coz i kinda expecting it.

S for math will be shocking and disappointing. doubt i will, unless i really made alot of careless mistakes?! :(

getting A for econs or GP would be nearly impossible, but will be the happiest joyest thing for me :D

A for math would be quite impossible but if i do, i'll buy gifts for my math tutor. HAHA.

A for chem would be MISSION IMPOSSIBLE. HAHA. even a B would be impossible already.

SO.... CONCLUSION?

gotta do a portfolio SOOOOON so i can go art,design,media in NTU.

HA, of all we know, i might not even get Cs and Ds to get into that course.

and my back up plan would be SIM economics or business.

and if i do fail chem or any other sub so badly that i have no choice but to retake.... (like a U grade)

i might just break down and jump down from my window beside me now. :(

SO, PEOPLE. most likely i wont say my results here. unless they're pretty good, to me.

so dont ask or sms or call me about it if i dont mention kay. thankyou :'(

Labels: bell, food, studies, working life

♥i'll always remember you
@ 11:27 PM

SIGH

YAY! main papers are finally over =D

(and my laptop's keypad is really spoilt, havta go back to the old fashion smiley -,-)

TO THINK THAT ITS NOT EVEN A YEAR OLD, and THIS WILL BE THE SECOND TIME SENDING IT FOR REPAIR, GOSH

but anyway next wk two more papers and prelims are over! =)

two more paper 1s, JYS TO ME =D

oh and i coincidentally bumped into sansan at tpy interchange agn aft "shoppin" with my sis on my maid's bday pres , so qiao =)

and best part is i din notice her until i heard her callin my name, HAHA

HOPEFULLY, i do better for prelims this time round than common test,

BECAUSE I PUT IN MORE EFFORT =(

though honestly i noe its still nt enough, STILL *dot dot dot*

i hope to improve

EVEN THOUGH, seriously, this prelims shocked me and woke me up showing me how hard A levels can be

ESPECIALLY FOR MATH

i dunnoe how to improve my math

i practice the most math with tuition 4hours every wk,

yet its the most unstable one =(

first time i felt lyk REALLY DOWN aft doin a paper

coz at least last time sec sch, i noe its coz i din study tats why cant do

but for tat stupid math paper, i did practice lor -,-

ARGH YES, ITS BEEN A WEEK ALR SINCE THE PAPER AND IM NOT OVER IT YET =(

IDIOT

dun wanna talk about it anymore, PUI! tata! =)

Labels: exams, studies

♥i'll always remember you
@ 10:15 PM

youthday,yesterday,today

i love this pic coz it represents three of the most impt things/ppl in my life..

HENCE they're always on my table to accompany me studying :D

MONDAY WAS ALL JCs HOL :)

YOUTH DAY!

me went to play volley and frisbee at sentosa with cindy and mabel oni coz bell was sick..

NO SUNTANNING COZ THERE WASNT ANY SUN !

but still had fun! :D

played alot rounds of tai-di while eatin our 99cents chips HAHA!

den played volley followed by frisbee

we even tried throwin frisbee to each other within a given small circle we drew on the sand

fun :)

no pics coz we forgot take any.. too busy havin fun :)

SO YEPP. sch's the same old boring thing

so far only gotten back bio paper

and as usual i failed overall.. and as usual my bio teacher asked me the same question aft every test i get back , "did u study for the test?"

blech, sick of her asking tat, hence i'll really really study for bio prelim..

and make sure she doesnt hav the chance to ask me tat anymore! :(

AND

i cant stand havin chem EVERYDAY cept friday

URGH!

anyway heres somemore random pics i took when studyin for common test..

HAHA!

PROOF OF ME STUDYING! :P

okae fine and using my ugly bigger com xP

cute little blue monster which i have in three sizes! HEARTS :D

yea somemore companionship :)

wanted show a pic of my latest "bestfren" :(

my girlgirl hamster which i visit everyday aft sch :D

but too bad blogger din succesfully upload it

TIL NEXT TIME ! :)

Labels: friends, outings, studies

♥i'll always remember you
@ 10:57 PM

the As

*GASPS* chinese A level is tomorrow.. lyk.. 12 hours later o.o

yet im nt studyin :/
but seriously, now tat teres no more "bao zhang bao dao",
i dun really noe wats tere to study..

i mean, i only studied notes for bao zhange bao dao last year for chinese Os.. :/
ohwell, maybe i'll just flip thru chinese textbook later.. den tats it.. haha

but i somehow feel very insecure..
its lyk tere hasnt been preparation.. nt lyk de feelin i had last yr,
whr we had chinese nite classes..

OHWELL.. its 12 hours before the paper alr.. too late to really do anythin.. haha

and this week no lessons... :)
Yet we have to go school EVERYDAY.. -.-
they said follow OP schedule, but yet, we have to report in school everyday same time

lyk..... super duper dumb -.-''
i dunnoe wat im gonna do in sch on monday, weds and fri...
coz my OP rehersals are on tues and thurs -.-''

AND they're oni lyk about 2 hours ? how lame can our sch get..

THANKFULLY, the real OP's on next weds :)
means PROJECT WORK ENDS ON NEXT WEDS :D
YAYYYY! tat'll be the happiest moment in my j1 life man xD
means official HOLIDAYS starts NEXT WEDS! .... if i dun need re-exam any subs tat is.. zzz

but so sad... my real OP's audience,
no fishy lyk in all my OP rehersals, and no bell :(
miss one time slot to be bell's audience and miss one time slot for her to be mine too..
so sad :(

OHWELL, wish me luck as i finish my J1 A level subs this month ! :D
lookin forward to next yr....... hopefully J2....... *SIGHS*

HOPEFULLY I GET THE SAME GRADE FOR A LEVEL CHINESE AS I GOT FOR Os *PRAY HARD*

Labels: bell, rants, studies

♥i'll always remember you
@ 7:15 PM

hoping that the obstacle = my miracle

MASUDA , BELIEVES, AND LOVES MANDA :P
econs was alrite today..
cept for the fact that not everything i read went into my head,
i missed out lotsa details in my essays :(

hopefully ms law doesnt have a high expectation of my essays, or case studies and wont nag or scold me durin lessons..
coz i think i'll be very depressed, esp if i get back maths results on the same day

as the days of exams passes by, im starting to lose more and more hope in promoting :(
is nt tat de papers are gettin harder,
its just tat im gettin worn out

i was soo exhausted tat i cldnt even do a basic question of ionic eqm durin tuition
i cld feel tat my chem tutor wasnt pleased, and quite pek chek :(
i feel sorry :( and useless :(
after all the effort she has put in, im still not producing results

i dunnoe how im gonna get a high C-B for chem to PASS its overall

but i just have to :/
i believe in miracles.....
but i also believe miracles only happen once in a blue moon

when , when will i ever achieve the results everyone expects of me? :(

how i wish someone made a cheer up video or picture with masuda for me :(
wanted to do it myself, but its lyk so pointless to cheer myself up with my own pic =.=''

ohwell :) i shall sleep away my worries , TOMORROW SHALL BE THE DAY,
i give all i have to chem.... hahaha.. *pukes*

Labels: studies

♥i'll always remember you
@ 12:16 AM

Smile, & The World Will Smile With You

firstly, WELCOME BACK TO MY LIVELY BLOG :D
haha, is nt tat exams are over.. LOL.. its just tat i wanna rant
but i dun wanna rant to anyone who's alive xD

coz i tink i'll bore them out :/
so i'll bore YOU instead xP
coz YOU can choose whether to read anot ma, den i wont feel so bad keep letting you yawn xD

OKAE, NO.1 complaint.
HAIR.
GOODNESS.

my fringe is short and super thin.. i think my hair's gettin into a bad shape :/
SEE MY LOVELY HAIR LAST TIME......

i miss my fringe from the past :(
now i kinda look abit boyboy if i hide all my back-hair..
kae la, nt bad.. SHUAI ma.. xD hahahaha! I LIKE.

if i ever meet a guy version of me, i'll ask him be my bf straight away..
HAHAHAHA.. OKAE JUST KIDDIN :)

anyway, just for those who are curious for my disappearance these past few days,
ive been both BUSY & LAZY.. tats why din post

(EVIDENCE OF ME STUDYIN IN SCH :D)(
EVIDENCE TO SHOW COMMON INTERESTS IN PENS AND CORRECTION TAPE BETWEEN ME AND AMABEL xD)

well was busy studying on monday, a public hol ma..
i studied the most that day for this whole week xP

this is evidence of me doin mindmap on halogen deriatives on my study table

which sadly, i haven mastered :(

NOTICE THAT EVERYTHING THERE IS GREEEEN & WHITEEEE! WOO! :D

my two very best friends who have accompanied day and night when studying :)

they never once left me when i needed music, and someone to talk to :)

(NOT THAT I TALK TO THEM HOR, is my phone provides connection to the outside world)

anyway last friday, was a slackky day.. many hours of breakky..

okae, nt really oni last fri -.-

this WHOLE week also liddat..

they should just cancel school this week? so lame can.

go sch for few hrs of lesson only. LAME. haha

ANYWAY, friday went to our latest secret hiding place in sch to study :D

eh no, nt fri.. ohno, cant rmb when :/

study tere too many times alr.. heh heh xP

where its quiet and theres AIR CON! WOO WOO! (actually my whole sch, every room is air-con-ed xD)

(CEPT, science labs la~ )

drawings done by me and annaBELL as usual X) *THUMBS UP,SHAKING* hee :D

everyone laughed non stop when they saw this masterpiece :D

CREDITS TO ME ME ME xP and abit to annaBELL, ah-mabel ~

rainbow bits on table! haha.. it looked very colourful one :(

but turned out like this.. CRY (HAHA, ANNABELL'S FAVOURITE WORD I DISCOVERED THIS WEEK) xP

and this was taken by her :)

i like the background, coz looks lyk autuum.. cant see? LOOK CLOSELY!!!

i love autuum kinda weathers.. cooling~ romantic~ windy~ queit~ OH i love the sound of leaves rustling..~ hehe.. and the sound of walking on pebbles.. xD

my mummy said i loved the sound of pebbles since young :)

dunnoe what sound i talkin bout? go macritchie reserviour,

go the turtle pond tere, and go into the forest part.. the pebbles are at the beginning part.. HAHAHAHA, i think im crazy.. :( feng le feng le D: CRY xD

oh m&ms :)

this is to show how CLEAR my digital cam is :)

anw m&ms give me energy, i love it :)

okae not only m&m, but kinder bueno, malteasers and ferrero too!! :D

AND AND AND, MILO! MILO! :D i love milo :) i think this the millionth time i said this -.-''

so anyway, today i had my very 1st promo paper.. hurhur
hmm.. no comments.. coz i dun wanna think bout it..
i watched 3 hrs of tv just to make me nt think bout it.. IMAGINE :(
ive never been so affected by an ENGLISH PAPAR in my WHOLE LIFE

coz this the FIRST TIME in MANDA'S LIFE
MANDA ALMOST DIN FINISH HER ESSAY AND COMPRE..
never, NEVER was i so kan chiong in writing a language paper..
seriously.. i really very impacted by it lor *sniffsniff*

okae STOP.. or else i will start thinking bout the whole experience agn -.-
anyway, yesterday.. nt much happened, besides me goin home early and watchin my fav shows on axn *THUMBS UP*

OH, weds was WRITTEN REPORT DUE DATE -.-
TUESDAY WAS A SUAY DAY.. i got pissed tat day.

okae nt really pissed, bt frustrated and i finally tasted the irritating-ness of LAST MINUTE WORK
it was all about PW i got mad at.. freak pw.. i hate pw..
SEE THIS BIG BIG PHRASE OKAE
I HATE STUPID PROJECT WORK
AND I CANT WAIT TO GET IT OVER AND DONE WITH END OF THIS YEAR
STUPID. >:(

but good thing on tues, i had two nice frens who cheered/helped me through xD
SANDY agreed to help me print if i was really desperate and we talked til 12plus am
hee :D
BELL, who was there through the whole process with me xD
coz we smsed since after school til lyk 2am.. haha

i so nice, i lent her my ipod for a day somemore :)

and she spoilt my ear piece :(

hahahha, okaes no la.. coz i think it was alr in bad condition to start with xP

OH and i must say, im proud to annouce i studied tat day from 12plus to 1plus am,
coz i told her i'll sleep when she sleep and we agreed to study :)
(COZ I TOT SHE WLD FALL ASLP SOON :S)

so even though i was frustrated with pw, and super tired, i did read econs! :)
and when i fell aslp at 2plus am, BELL called and woke me up xD

asking me whether i gt blank cd for pw.. TSKTSK, another last min worker lyk me xP
and when i picked up the call, i gave myself away tat i fell aslp :(
but ohwell, we said we'll try agn tonite to study til the wee hours :)
coz tmr's a hol for us :)

and ytd it suddenly struck me, how sadd i'll be if i dun make it to J2 next yr :(
it struck me, how depressing it'll be if i cant laugh at annabel and amabel or guoyi everyday :(
or discuss korean and jap stuff with lydia :(

ANW amabel gave me a present on tuesday :D
and in return i gave her somethin too.. hehe..
somemore, i treated her LJS today xPxP
NOTE TO MYSELF: SHE STILL OWES YOU CHOCOLATE OREO :D

so ya,
let me tell u my upcoming papers kaes :D
mon - CHINESE, which i wanna do well in :/
tues - bio, byebye~
weds - maths :( :( :(
thurs - ECONS, I MUST DO WELL.. I WANNA C-CE or B-CE it ! !!! :(
followin mon - CHEM D: i'll make sure, im prepared for this paper
i dun wanna screw up chem anymore.. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH..

okaes tats all! thanks for bearing with my nonsense! I LOVE YOU! YOU! the one readin this :D

lastly, heres wishing all JJC-ians, and ESP,

ANNABELL, GUOYI, AMABEL, LYDIA, SHU HUI,

ALLLLLLLLL THHHHEEE BESSSSSTTTT :D

JIAYOUS FOR ECONS BELL :D & JIAYOUS FOR MATHS FUNNY FISHY :D

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
-taken from my recent motivation song :)

Labels: bell, gaaals, randoms, rants, studies

♥i'll always remember you
@ 12:29 AM

The Gift Of A Friend

Sometimes you think you'll be fine by yourself

Cause a Dream is a Wish You Make all alone

Its Easy to Feel Like You Dont Need Help

But Its Harder To Walk On Your Own

The World Comes To Life and Everythings Alright

From Beginning To End

When You Have a Friend By Your Side

That Helps You To Find

The Beauty You Are

When You Open Your Heart And Believe In

Someone Who knows When You're Lost and

You're Scared There through The Highs and The Lows

Someone You Can Count On, Someone Who Cares Besides You

Where Ever You Go

When The Hope Crashes Down

Shattering To The Ground

You, You'll Feel All Alone

When You Dont Know Which Way To Go

And There's No Signs Leading You On

You're Not Alone

this week's been a lil tiring, and sian..
nt sayin tat sch's sian, coz it never is , with the gaaals :)
just kinda gettin sick of doin tutorial, readin lecture notes to understand, attendin lectures to lullaby me, attendin my fav sub lesson and get screamed at -.-

honestly, im losing interest in econs..
coz im beginning to give up in it :(
can be seen from my C falling to a S? :/

coz ive been tryin.. and when i gave 98% of my best, i ONLY got a C ? :(
so din see the point of studying hard..

plus with all de discouragements by econs teacher,
i dun see the reason behind my tryings to get Cs Bs or even aimin for an A at the end of next yr
i dun see why im working so hard for econs for...

since A is so hard to get.. i dun see the need to put my hope in it..
might as well concentrate in chem and maths :(

so sad :( lyk my hamster in de pic xD
i dunnoe why he always stays at that corner and emos.. poor guy
guess hes too stressed with havin a child? xP

this week i rmb once being sad coz i was angry with myself :(
for not being able to do my integration tutorial..

and annaBELL told me somethin tat kinda made me reflect xP
i was so affected by it, i went home, sit on my toilet bowl and thought of how to improve myself xP
while she sat on her toilet bowl, thinkin of why i was so sian tat day xD

after msg-ing with her tat day,
i really tried to do integration tutorial all by myself
and up til today, i still rmb wat she said :)

i just hope that you will try your best to do each question in the tutorial, is
okay that you dont know, but you must really keep trying ... time, is what you
need.

so my motto now is "just keep tryin" :D
(instead of just keep swimmin.. HAHA! ) ~~sry i just watched nemo on disney channel xP~~

it was first time this yr, i actually seriously "woke up" xP
and she's the 2nd person in my life, whose words can actually affect me greatly :O
so guoyi says, she'll pass naggin job to bell from now xD

thank youuuu alll for always being there for me :)
whether to teach me maths/chem, nag me, encourage me, or make me laugh :)

cant wait to see them on sunday to bake coookies! :D
AND I CANT WAIT FOR SUSHI TWO WEEKS FROM NOW ! :D

yayyyyyy! X)

You Can Belive In...

The Gift Of A Friend

Labels: bell, friends, rants, school, studies

♥i'll always remember you
@ 10:58 PM

what are you good at?!?

blogger is finally back to normal =.=''
just when i wanna go sleep soon...

i wanted sleep at 10plus..
coz have new tutor comin for maths tuition tmr mornin :/
but was editing pic for projectwork :/
i must say, im proud of my editing skills in photoshop :D

anyway today went to jp with twinnies and shu hui and cindy and GUOYI :)
(see i din miss u out) xP
ATE PIZZA HUT! :D

and before tat, had econs test :(
today..
i realise im not econs person
maybe im nt a arts student either
maybe im just no good in either :(

i cant even rmb main pts..
whats de point of takin the test :(
i felt so demoralised
its as if my hopes of gettin A for econs at the end of next yr has been dashed completely

with my chem being so lousy with unstable foundation,
maths not my type of world,
biology not being my favourite anymore
i dun see where i can get my As next yr

my mummy is right.. maybe i shld go poly if i dun pass my promos :(
im not emo or sad hor!
just reflecting..
HAHA, i realise i reflect alot when im on mrt compared to on bus xP

BACK TO PIZZA HUT
so we played "zhong ji mi ma" a few times
and last round , loser was to drink coke which HAS, SOUP, PEPPER, CHEESE and dunnoe wat other stuff..
which made it smell lyk some sour eeyer thing xP

guoyi made it xD
AND she ended up being the one tasting it coz she lost xD
LUCKY ME WAS THE ONE SETTING THE NUMBER ;)

HAHA, LOOK AT HOW AMABEL REACTED WHEN GUOYI WAS GONNA TASTE TAT DISGUSTING MIXTURE! hahaha

even though it was just lunch and walkin a short while in fairprice,

it was kind fun :D

AND TMR WILL BE FUN-NER! WOO! CANT WAIT TO SEE THEM AGN ON SUNDAY ;)

Labels: rants, studies, tests

♥i'll always remember you
@ 12:37 AM

perseverance!

i LOVE PLAYING Wii ! WOO ! :D

bt its been distractin me ever since it came into my house..
ytd distracted me for one, two hours plus? xP
today distracted me for almost an hr :/

i think playin it with my sis more fun den playin alone though.. heh

anyway my mummy sent me some msgs today tat kinda encouraged me
she sent song lyrics by miley cyrus' "Climb" -.-''
and she told me i could retain and take arts stream if i really think i cant make it for As next yr

it kinda made me feel guilty coz..
i feel lyk im such a failure daughter :(
i cant even please my mummy by giving her As, or just even gettin all Cs..

i dun feel surprised they dun really nag me anymore,
or feel angry, sad at my results..
i just feel guilty for not producing results of their expectations

yet at the same tym..
75% of my brain is always thinkin of playin or else... sleeping..
HOW do u actually train your mind to be awake , alert.. to study study study study?
and yet have time to play..? :/

but again.. my chinese teacher motivated me to not give up on studies..
she reminded us tat theres only one more year to hold on :)
when will i finally give my best shot at stuff? :(

ANYWAY , i shall go print my eom now, NO MORE EDITING. >:(
i GIVE UP OFFICIALLY ON MY EvalutionOfMaterial
ITS A TOTAL WASTE OF MY TIME
I RATHER STONE THERE THAN DO MY EOM.
*PUKES ON PW, EOM, AND MY SLOW STUPID LAPTOP*

THREE MORE DAYS TO CHEM AND POSTPONED ECONS TESTS! >=)

Labels: rants, studies

♥i'll always remember you
@ 11:15 PM

PROJECT PC02

ohno ohno,
i noe i shldnt be postin now.. but ohnoooo
i feel so uneasy i have to share xD

i have an essay to do, just finised eom and 4 chaps more of bio to study ):
chem alkanes nt touched yet.. and its all gonna end by fri, PHEW..

anyway just a short short description of my day
i forgot all about goin track today.. how stupid -.-

guess coz today's last period was overwhelming
failed chem mid yr as expected..
sad point: i failed by 9 marks :(
one encouragin point to note:
i need 53.8% to pass my chem overall for promos :)

hopefully, my brain can "kai qiao" and my mind will be more mature,
to start CHIONG-GING for my future.. i realised today i stil have no passion or ambition ):

was at guoyi's hse this aftnoon to study anw :)

EVIDENCE OF STUDYING!

evidence of playin :x annabel drawin her "O" which looks lyk orange.. xD hahahaha

THIS WAS SUPER FUNNY

we were doin project PC02 XD guoyi and annaBELL preparin it.. look lyk they fixin puzzle hor?

and here are they deli-dally-ing to take grp photo.. TSKTSK.. hahaha

annaBELL sleeping, slackin, tou-lan-nin as usual xP

why so many pics of annabel?! haha

AND GRP PHOTO! as well as our project PC02!

with guoyi showin off her clean feet here.. ahahahaha
i think i look stupid here, bt ohwell i wanted show her feeet ar xD

okaes tats all,
awaitin for my econs paper to come back to me
meanwhile, im clingin on to the hope tat i'll get a B or C

dun wan a "just pass" :(

why is the only sub i kinda understand and like, so diff to score?

"tell me whyyy its so hard to forget, dun remind me-eeee~" ahaha.. gueess wat song xD
AND I DIN GET TO CATCH THE ECLIPSE, NOR CATCH ANY TELECAST OF IT
ARGHHHH! :( :(

Labels: friends, rants, results, studies

♥i'll always remember you
@ 10:37 PM

Where's The STARTING LINE?

HEY HEY LOOK! its my 350th post :D
hahaha.. okaes so bo liao, im jux here coz i feel so "strangled" doin my maths..
and ive been doin it for the past... 20mins oni.. XD
and the time's 12.50am alr.. OMGOSH

i suddenly feel anxious :(
i have a chinese compo to do, THREE sets of maths revision papers, a load pile of maths practic ques, english compo, TUITION HMK DUE TMR MORNIN.. and CHEM to study..
if oni this anxiousness came to me when i was watchin my 4hrs of tv non-stop -.-''

this is wat u get when u leave a playful-17-yr-old-girl at home with only a maid..
BUT U NOE, i feel more determined to do work now.. more freeeeedom ! YEA! :D
okaes buh-bye, back to my chinese compo and maths!!!

HOPEFULLY, i REALLY START STUDYING LYK SOOOOON !!!!!!
time's runnin out :(
no, its SPRINTING..

and random abit..
i feel weird saying this, bt i miss sprinting and running..
HOPEFULLY, guoyi and i wld be able to run tog tmr, hee hee :D

Labels: rants, studies

♥i'll always remember you
@ 12:56 AM

RANTdom

TODAY i ponned soccer yet again :x
reached home 4plus~ and i slacked all de way til now..
mainly just redecoratin my blog, although i think teres nt much diff xP
i gt back my lecture test for maths two days ago? or ytd? .. i gt 5/25.. xP

and san said i sound happy gettin 5 marks.. hahaha..
well nt really la.. just tat i nvr gt 1/5 of a mark before.. LOL
so its kinda a new experiece.. hahaha.. kinda shiok tat im that lousy XD

bt today i did my corrections in class hor.. guai okae.. xP
and had annabel teach me tat VERY FIRST CHAP, advanced version of binomial, AGAIN..
*sighs*

bio test today, i can confidently say, i'll fail.. hahaha..
hopefully, i'll have mood to study tmr ~
today dunnoe why no mood do anythin.. all i did was watchin tv agn -.-
and i gt an inspiration for PW though , conserving cartoons.. xP
bt i think tat idea sounds familiar, lyk dunnoe who suggested before..

anyway anyway anyway
im improving in my stock market observing skills !! xP
okaes, oni in neopets la..
i earned 2000 plus NP.. LOL!! okaes its ALOT TO ME xP
bt HEY, its USEFUL for my BRIGHT future ok,
WHO NOES LOR,
maybe next time YOU'LL be asking me for stock tips..

yes YOU, the one readin this.. hahahahaha..

and today i saw a few aeroplanes fly past the skies of toa payoh in de evenin
i wonder which one is special fren's plane~
i din even gt to say goodbye coz i was too slow in replyin her msg.. eeeeeee..
and i oni gt to talk to her 8days later..
dun even gt to talk much to her when shes in spore lor,
wat more now when shes overseas..
eeeyer =((

Labels: friends, rants, shinyuu, studies

♥i'll always remember you
@ 9:00 PM

manda oxide

thank you for..FOREVER givin way to me,

and recently "protectin" me lyk a motherly figure, xP

and always enduring my fengness :)

doesnt this pic look lyk FLAKEY and my bluemisty?xP

TODAY is the LAST DAY of my prelims!

though dun really LOVE today or feel happy coz it just means Os is drawin NEARER...

but anws, of coz must celebrate and enjoy awhile 1st before chiongin agn xP

WARNING : LONG AND CRAPPY POST AS YOU SCROLL DOWN

SO went j8 with sannnnnnn and xm..~!

and it was bcoz i wanted my chocolate milkshake xP

aww, me and my desperate cravings..hahaha..

bt anw, we took 410 to j8 coz we were TOO LAZY and probably tired to walk xP

and we met so many ppl lor -.-

1st we met 4joy ppl, den we met sihui tey all and 4peace ppl, den met our class boys..

j8's too small xP

anw we had alot of hesitations here and tere thanks to SANDRA LOCK.. xP

1st she wanted to eat LJS, den MCWINGS, den PIZZA HUT...

in de end, we went mac for mcwings -.-

and i guess xm was so sick of our "FLEXIBILITY TO CHANGES"

until she jux kope two fries and shooed off xP

and my favourite sentences today to xin min were...

"LEARN TO ADAPT TO CHANGES!" "BE MORE FLEXIBLE!" xP

hahahaha.. ohwell..

just made me realise how used san and i are to each other.. HAHAHAHA

coz i had no complaints or comments to san's indecisiveness and i really din mind..^.^"

i guess its really called MODIFICATION to my characteristics... LOL.. (bio)

ANYWAY,

so sannnnnn and i sat tere at mac, yakkin on her PHOBIA OF.... *ZIP* xP

den wen we went toilet i suddenly had a urge to watch WALL-E.. LOL

and sumhow we ended up callin priscilla and borrowin money frm her xP

DEN we stood at de theatres and pondered on wat to watch..

we even called rach to get advice on wat to watch..

coz san din wanna watch WALL-E =(

and we refused to watch money no enough, coz we both think its a waste of $ xP

AND we almost wanted to watch 12 LOTUS =.=''

but in de end, we din watch any =( and i din get my nachos T.T

so we stood outside de mrt station starin at de map of spore xP

and sickenin sandra wanted to go chinese garden.. hahahahaha...

while i wanted to go VIVO xP

and so we squabbled and squabbled tere..

SHE SUGGESTED: kallang ice skating MY REBUTTAL: i got enough wounds and cuts xP

SHE SUGGESTED: chinese garden hahahaha.. I JUST SAID.."LETS GO VIVO!" xP

and so her persistant answer was chinese garden... LOL!!

and mine was tampines mall to watch movie xP

AND WE ENDED UP AT DOUBY.. -.-

and we din watch movie coz SMALL LIL SANDRA wanted to find wallet =(

and i was soooooo lookin forward to my nachos lor HMPH!

haix so disappointedly, i was dragged by san to daiso -.-

WHERE SHE WANTED A DUMB LOOKIN BOX xP

hahaha.. JOKIN.. she wanted this box so badly she hinted to the person beside her..

hmm.. i wonder if de person wld rmb.. hahahahaa..

so in de end i din get to buy a decent, cute lil box =(

i din even get to buy tat cute plastic bag wih cute wordins..

but we went SPOTLIGHT after tat, whr i gt this plain grey box..

i dunnoe why i bought it too xP

guess was too sleepy until din noe wat i was doin.. LOL!

while san bought "MEE FEN" to KNIT A SCARF.. hahahahahaha

the threads thingys looked TOOO like MEE FEN tat i cldnt stop laughin at her.. xP

(she looked lyk my mother choosin MEE FEN) xP

OH BE MY WITNESS, SHE SAID SHE WANNA KNIT SCARF FOR ME.. ^.^

bt i guess i'll see it 5yrs later xP tats her deadline, when we go IRELAND with rach :)

ANNNNNDDDD i cldnt find a nice envelope for somebody's belated card =(

BUT!!! sandy kindly volunteered to make for me an envelope =)

so oh well, all i needa do later is do de card's front cover :D

after tat, we had AUNTIE ANNIE'S! :D

and i koped lyk 1/4 of her cinnamon thin xP I LOVE TAT CINNAMON THINGY, GOSH..

but she din treat me one piece lyk promised!! xP

jkjk.. hahahaha..

and we boarded train to marina bay and back to tp (:

coz i wanted to sit more xP

and it was a SO RIGHT decision..

oz when at marina bay, it was so empty lor..

and both of us were slpin tere xP

san slept so close to me.. okaes nt even called close..

she literally laid on my back coz i was leanin more on de screen thingy.. hahahaha

until she cld feel my heartbeat.. GOSH.. hahahah.

den she took a crazy picture of herself -.-
which u can see her if u LOOK CLOSELY to de BLACK THIN THERE.. hahaha xP
and she insisted on takin a pic together bt i deleted it xP
coz i looked lyk a drug addict with my eyes 3/4 closed -.-
was too sleepy le xP

and i was half aslp all de way tat i kept spoutin nonsense.. hahahaha..

and as usual, i asked strange and stupid questions which she only HUH at with no answers XD

but yesterday had nitemare lor =(
oni had 4hrs of sleep coz i slept at 1plus plus plus coz i cldnt sleep =(
and when i fell aslp i had nitemareS -.-
TWO nitemares in 4 hrs -.-

coz i was frightened until i woke up in cold sweat at 5plus am =(
den i was sooo affected by them i tried to think of frens who cld give me comfort xP
bt they all looked lyk dead corpses and monsters everytym i think of them T.T
so i went to sleep with my maid in de end..~

and i cldnt get back to sleep frm 5plus all de way to 7.20am when it was about tym to wake up
and it affected my whole day's behaviour lor..
i cldnt do my chem paper in peace coz it was lyk somethin botherin bottling up in me =(
but thank god when i was doin bio, i was in a relaxed mood :D

den followed by a whole day of feng-ness and half aslpness xP

and durin this weekend, learnt alot more about myself =/
learn tat i really like and dislike things/ppl/anythin very fast..and scary..
coz in one day.. three people told me tat.. =(
and when de third person told me tat.. it impacted me alot xP

and then tere was this conversation with my mum and sis..
and our conclusion was tat im now numb towards everythin ard me,
coz i dun wanna get involved in the world's pain and hurt, and frustrations..
well its a kinda gradual and i myself din realise until tat day they mentioned,
tat ive been escaping reality so much tat i cant sense ppl's moods anymore

im nt tat sensitive to others' feelings, and im nt sensitive to wat ppl say anymore..

i guess its just coz i had too many frustrations and disappointments and blahhh before
(guess i have a weak little fragile heart) xP
so i guess i just wanted to live a life concentrating on studies..
but maybe it isnt tat good, coz it caused me to overlook others' moods...
&not being able to help cheer ppl up makes my weak heart feel worse..
but it doesnt matter anymore,doesnt it..its all done and over..-.-

ohwell..~
i guess i have this layer of manda oxide around me,
causing me to be oblivious to de people ard me.. sadd isnt it..?
haha.. too much chemistry, manda!! xP

LASTLY!

i love this alot alot alot alot alot alot alot, gosh xP

-x33- (:

Labels: -x33-, bestie, outings, personnal, rants, studies

♥i'll always remember you
@ 7:45 PM

back frm another busy and meaningless week xP

sch's gettin meaningless once agn for me..

i find no point in paying attention in classes coz i ether forget everythin when i reach home, or i dun understand wats goin on -.-

i guess everythin's too late ^.^"

i think i "woke up" too late, coz mock exams' in one week and nothin's been revised YET -.-

*sighs* for all my studies, school and PIANO -.-

talkin bout it just makes me SIAN-ED..

though, one gd news is tat my piano exam, which was supposed to be tmr has been postponed (:

my appeal to ABRSM was successful, YAY! ^.^

but tat makes me worried coz it may fall on the same day as MOCK EXAMS OR PRELIMS :(

but nevertheless,

im gonna start muggin, (i really hope so)

coz im losin my motivation alr =(

only happy thing is more time to practice for my piano exam...

the rest of the aspects of my life is lyk, -............-''

ohwell, im glad rach and san pei-ed me to christofori today (:

gotta noe rach's little secret xP and it was VERY SHOCKIN xP

and..i was a lil moody today durin dunnoe which class... =X

sorry bout it sandy and rachie =)

esp sandy.. xP

but anw, u should noe tat i'll nvr get angry at you de arhh =)

NEVER =)

and i still trust both of you the most now, and forever more.. xP

oh and my dear sandy,

sorry for bein such a bad "hoster"

so sorry sorry sorry..

dun so upset and hurt le lahh.. xP

promise i'll welcome you with open arms and legs the next tym u cum xP

P.S i love you alot alot alot alot, til the end of.....

sec4 life.. hahahaha.. JKJK (:

SANDY's THE BESTEST BEST FRIEND ON EARTH, VENUS, and sometimes MARS :D

oh and and and... i PASSED MY PHYS TEST! ^.^

2nd tym i passed le (:

tat reminds me,

thanks thanks mich for tellin me wat was goin to be tested for phys test! ^.^

i was apparently sick the day before the phys test...

and tips were apparently given but SOMEBODY din inform me xP

hahaha.. though im glad i have rach rach as my friend too

coz she was the ONLY ONE who called and chit chat with de sick and bored me for about an hr? (:

she nt only told me the whole day's events, but updated me on phys too, even bio lesson..hahaha

i love rachrach! even though she may nt ever see this since she's banned frm com xP

and i really cant stand the way she talks on the fone, still as humorous as the 'live' person (:

oh and ive been faithfully goin for nite studys on fri nites^.^

guai guai me! YAY! haha..

and i watched an advertisement on HSM 3 just now

totally awesome xP

but sadly, its comin to cinemas in october =(

okaes, gotta go start doin hmk! im determined to do well for chem for mock exams! >=)

and maybe, just maybe, i hope i can do well for bio too....

which reminds me,

teres a bio test on thurs on EYE and NERVOUS SYSTEM.. all so CHIM... -.-

oh and guess what, i asked mrs chow if eyes cld grow bcoz SOMEBODY ASKED ME TO ASK TAT, coz she was curious..

she even asked if nose, mouth cld grow..

and i actually asked tat ques to san and mrs chow

so heres your answer, SOMETWO xP

eyes can grow.. =)

alrites, tats all for now..

may nt be postin frequently now, coz exams are around the corner...

corners remind me of the dino in 'meet the robinsons' who went..

"I HAVE A BIG HEAD AND SMALL ARMS" gosh..so unforgettable xP

hahahaha..

~~sometimes i wish i never knew you~~

~~you're just a stupid piece of shit thats never worth my care or concern~~

~~and guess what, im not gonna let you affect me ANYMORE~~

~~heck man. life's a mess with you.~~

~~freak outta my life, please LAH~~

~~who needs you to ___, and who will ___ for you man, W.L.L and D.L, heck.~~

~~look at your STUPID SICKENIN FACE before thinkin about what others' may comment~~

~~i dont care even if the whole world is on your side, coz i'll nvr be on the same side as Y-O-U~~

okaes okaes, im gettin crappy..

thanks for readin, ppl! :D

ALL THE BEST FOR MOCK EXAMS, KCPIANS! haha

esp peacies! ;)

Labels: besties, dear, movies, piano, randoms, school, studies

♥i'll always remember you
@ 11:01 AM

LAST MONDAY! or issit tuesday? o.O
i went SAKAE! xP
though im broke, but once in awhile have such luxury,
no harm bahh! :D
and i realised sometwo really loves crabmeat...
eat so many plates of crabmeat sushi.. tsktsk.. xP
and we even went in at 3pm SHARP for de tea time buffet..
while killing tym, we saw ajisen with all de food displayed out..
which made us soooo hungry =(

now i finally learnt the feeling of STARVATION..
but anw,
we were at novena's sakae sushi,
coz tere were fewer ppl tere..~
and the air-con tere is better..AND they play AUDIBLE jap music (:
ohoh.. and the staff there is so funny xP
one of them even 'ticked' us off for eatin of udon 1st instead of sushi..
coz she say eat udon le, later cannot eat tat much sushi... hahahah..
but i still lyk de short-hair one better..shes so so funny xPsadly, i dunnoe how to describe for u ppl to imagine xP

LAST FRIDAY-

mrs chow let us off lyk.. 2hrs earlier! WHEEHEES!
she even gave each of use lollipops (:
aww.. i told you mrs chow is nice (:

went j8 with sandy and lie-neh..~
we went tere to kill time xP..
nahh, actually our main motive was to eat MCGRIDDLES..
anyone out there who havent tried it,
GO TRY! its so nice i tell u xP
but of coz if u dun lyk food thats a lil saltish YET sweet,
then i suggest you dun waste ur money (:

but of coz, if ure lyk ME,
who has sweeth tooth, yet loves savoury food,
den yes, go try (: its worth ur hard earned money.. LOL

ANW,
we din manage to get our mcgriddles =(
coz we missed de breakfast menu! we were realeased at 10.55am?
so its lyk.. impossible to make it in tym de..
but we still held on to the hope of eatin it lor..

in de end,
nananana and i shared fries (that was bought wit san's meal)
and we shared GREEN TEA ICECREAM!
YES, the NEW ICECREAM of mac.. ^.^
at 1st, when lie-neh asked me try it,
i was.. "huhh..so weird lookin.."
end up, i think i ate more xP
and i think de more i ate, de more i got addicted to it ^x^
at de end, i even wanted to buy another one..
GOSH, its really NICE i tell you..
NOT BITTER AT ALL, not much tea taste..
creamy, milky and a lil green tea smell..~
even a non-green-tea-lover lyk sandy liked it (:

and i secretly took this photo of san xP
coz linaaaa told me to do so,
i even have one when her hair was blown by de fan.. so messy xP
hahahaha.. and funny too xP

FRIDAY NITE,
mum suddenly asked us to get changed..
and while rushin out,
she explained tat there was one for one ice cream at SWENSENS ^.^
and it even rained while we were rushin tere..!
but mum ran in de ran to queue 1st xP
(talk about typical sporeans.. ahahahha..~)

so we ordered 4 ice creams and fries even though tere was only 3 of us..LOL
but in de end she called my dad to comeover to help finish the ice cream..
and mine is de TALLEST ONE! ^.^
COOKIE AND CREAM FLAVOURED!
(its my favourite flavour incase u dunnoe =) )

and it was VERY NICE, though very fillin =X
and i din get my fries =(
but mum bought fries frm mac for us in de end to fulfil my sis and my desire for FRIES :D

SATURDAY!
was asked to change all of a sudden agn.. hahaha..
lazt minute outings really get me excited lor, i realise xP
but mum said we were goin to the musuem..
coz tere was free entry-.- musuem day-.-

but it didnt turn out as borin as i thought it wld (:
it was kinda interestin actually xP
we went to the fashion gallery, food gallery, photography gallery (:
no historical stuff! ^.^
and i find de photography gallery the coolest...
they had this "scary film" playing..
it was an old old film..
which my mum said was.. "pontianac?" dunnoe how to spell lahh xP

anw i was so facinated wif it tat i stood tere watchin..
so engrossed, i didnt even noe my family walked off le-.-
and when i saw de "ghost" come out,
i briskly walked off xP
den mym mum asked all of use to sit tere to watch after tat..LOL

DEN,
the MAIN EVENT!
LUNCH AT NEWYORKNEWYORK :D

finally had my fried mars bar!!!
ever since everland tat day i wanted to eat le lor =/
FINALLY got it ^.^
and i tried de cheesy chicken tere :D
soooo niceeee~
esp for a cheese lover lyk ME..
did i mention my piano teacher gave me cheese? ^.^"
CHEDAR CHEESE.. expensive kind (:
and my piano exam is in two days time o.O..

OKAES, off track xP
and my sis and dad actually din noe newyorknewyork can make free contton candy..
they both went to make giant ones.. so cool xP

AT NITE,
went to my uncle's birthday bash at aloha changi chalet (:
at 1st, it was kinda borin..~
and i tot it was gonna be a bore...
esp when sophia kept eatin and eatin and eatin only.. tsktsk xP
but then,
after tat when she ate enough, xP
and only both of us in de room tat tym,
it was startin to turn fun xP..

we were tere.."gossipin" ^x^
and tere were two parts!
one was before singin the birthday song and before eatin de plain cheesecake ^.^"
part two was AFTER visitin my sis in de other room,
(she was playin some memory game thingy-.-)

part two was more fun xP
sophia: "are you dumb or dumb?"
WITHOUT ANY HESITATION..
manda: "im dumb"
sophia: "which part of dumb dont you understand?"
WITHOUT THINKING,
manda: "the 'm' "
both burst out laughin..
hahahaa..
thinkin of it now, makes me smile.. xP
i think both of us eventually went too high..
to even say such stupid stuff..

and i guess de reason was bcoz it was 10plus in de nite le,
in case you dunnoe,
manda turns high easily when its nite tym.. (:

but then, we started to talk about some other stuff.. (:
and then, esther suddenly came in.. disruptin our talk xP
*esther sings while walkin in, oblivious to her surroundins*
*sophia and manda stares at her*
*esther suddenly stop singing*
"am i disrupting you two the conversation?"
both: "YES"
"oh im so sorry, no wonder u two so queit"
and as she decides to walk out,
she come to the bed where we two were,
and sits down, asking what we two were talkin about..
hahahhaa..
that whole scene was so... memorable? ^.^"

so we chit chatted..~
and then started takin photos
but sadly tey're in esther's red camera..
haven got them~

and ah fang oso came in.. ^.^"
but then she "got rid" of esther coz she asked her accompany her go toilet..^.^"

so,
when sophia and i were left alone agn,
i dared her to do somethin..
which i nvr expected her to do it..
but yahh she did it in de end lor!! so darin..!
i shocked dao lor.. ^x^

and suddenly my mum barged in,
and her 1st sentence was..
"why are you two les-sing in here?"
^.^"
i guess she keeps thinkin im a les..-.-
every now and then always tok to me about those kinda stuff..
and keeps claimin tat i lyk girls.. LOL..
and after she knew sophia and i were smsin after partin at de chalet,
she asked if we two had somethin on..LOL!
oh well..~ sophia is my dear or darling anw.. xP

AND,
YESTERDAY!
aiya, lazy say le..
im goin to spore poly open hse today anw! (:
gotta leave le!